Hello WORLD! I took the last couple of months to recuperate from what was a very difficult process in my life. I was recently taken to court by some of America’s most prominent pastors. It was a very tough legal battle, but the slap in the devil’s face was when all four counts of heresy (in which I was taken to court on) were dropped. Three of which were settled out of court and I am thus by law silenced from mentioning there names in any future posts. In the next 10 years collectively those pastors will pay me a million dollars as part of the settlement. Want to check it out? Look at local court records in which these pastors took me to court and now it say’s “Out of Court Settlement” I also recently signed a publishing deal with a very prominent company in which I will be able to share my pain and experiences as a man caught in homosexuality amongst these auspicious men of God.
My life is much better than the last “cry for help” in which I plainly poured my feelings out about “J” the very popular pastor in which I was in a relationship with, who didn’t even acknowledge my presence when I was in a room nor did he even care to handle things properly as far as breaking up with me was concerned. Since then, he’s personally apologized and also expressed his hurts for me plainly letting the public know “Our” Business.
My intent was never to just expose these pastors or the “rat packs” of Gospel music in which I frequently spoke of. It was however to let everyone know how prevalent the spirit of homosexuality is. It is Not only on music but also on men in Ministry period. I was speaking to “Pastor J” (who now is someone I can confide in) and he shared with me that it is uncommon for many to not be! Quoted saying, “It’s not that I had gay feelings at first, or that I wanted to do it…, but there were many circles I was not allotted in, many engagements that I wasn’t welcome in, and many friendships I would’ve never developed had I NOT been one” .....ONE? What was pastor J talking about?
*BEING ONE….(short ramble)*
I’ve never looked at this lifestyle as something you can “be” but rather something you ARE. In seeking deliverance I’ve learned that it is far more complicated than that. I’ve recently left my church and found a church that is both anointed and logical! This church has a very strong deliverance ministry and in that I am finding out that I can be free from every chain that the enemy has me bound with.
*back to my intent*
My intent was also to VENT. I had kept this in so very long that I had to let someone know. It just so happened that the internet was the tool I used. It was the “last straw” when I found out that one of the pastors in which I was supposedly committed to (Really not because he was married, with kids and a ministry…and I was involved with many other pastors, singers & vocalists) told me that his wife had an STD and with a test he found out he also had…., he chose to throw the blame on me and told me I was the one who gave him the disease. After being tested, I found out that I was STD-Free. So how did this pastor get the STD? Means I was being used this entire time as just a sex object when he was in town. That started my quest for truth and for deliverance and a closer look at the lifestyle. I know God is going to use me eventually to be a Force against this lifestyle. I still have to get my flesh & life under subjection first!
I just got a call from the publishing company; I have some deadlines that I need to prepare for! Hope the e-saints are praying for me!
Regards,
Ronnie J.
